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This is me pretending this is all I need [22 Sep 2005|04:04pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I didn't get to sleep last night until 3am. I couldn't fall asleep no matter what I tried to do.

I blame my brain. I just couldn't stop thinking no matter what. I hated that. All these thoughts just kept going through my mind. Most of them more negative than anything else.

I got a bunch of stuff in the mail today. Woo for real mail and not just bills. Got the Sims 2 Nightlife exspansion today. Been playing that quite a bit since it keeps me from thinking. And anything that can keep me from thinking right now is a good thing. My brain is just in over drive and I have no idea why.

That's me with my new glasses in my icon, in case no one has noticed yet.

I have a few chapters to read for a psychology class and a few chapters to go over for anthropology. I have tests coming up already.

And I still feel weird. What the heck is it?

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Zzz [13 Jan 2005|03:41pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I'm tired. Not even finished a week of the new semester and I already want it to be over. Haha. Weather has been weird lately. Really warm today, but then back down to -8 tomorrow.

Freddie was howling at the window again this morning. Not as scary or as loud as before. But enough to wake us both up around 6:30am. Been up even since.

Though one nice thing, the shows we like to watch are on tonight. Yay.

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[09 Jan 2005|06:06pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Just finished making and eating dinner. Made little pizzas and salad. Though the salad was a bit nasty, since it was starting to go brown! But we still ate it. Hah.

Tomorrow I have school. One class at 9am. Then I am done for that day. Tuesday is my longest day for classes though. Have one class til 6pm. See how that goes.

Should clean up a bit. But just don't feel like it right now. Might do it tomorrow after I come home from my appointment. That is all though.

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Time is valuable [03 Jan 2005|05:39pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I got about a week before I head back to London and go back to school. I don't know my timetable yet, so I don't know when I will be having classes. I really hope that I don't have any 8am classes, and if I do that I don't have alot of them. One if fine! Though none would be even better!

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No More [31 Oct 2004|03:57pm]
I will never ever update this journal again. So I would appreciate it if people remove this journal from their friends list. No real reason to keep it is there?
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Okay.. [04 Mar 2004|08:33pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I took some (bad) pics with my web cam. Bad meaning the quality is horrible, and I look ten times better in real life (or on a better camera haha) Or at least I think so. But I thought I'd let everyone see what I've been talking about.

my hair and meCollapse )

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[03 Mar 2004|11:53pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Bit of a pointless post, but fun nonetheless (well I guess that depends on your definitition of fun hahaha) Edit: Removed pictures from this post, put them in another one. Pics of my hair..

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[01 Mar 2004|08:34pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Today it was a nice day out today, had to go out for awhile to the store. Didn't do as much walking as I did yesterday though. Me and my sister had taken the bus down to the store, because I was going to buy a ps2. It was a short bus ride, so we figure why pay another $2 to get back? Why not just walk it back. So we did, and when we got back no one believed us that we walked the way home. Later figured out because we walked over 3 miles home with a ps2. Which I guess for us was quite a feat. That or doesn't say much for what people think we can do. Hah.

Redid my journal, took off the valentines day layout I made to amuse myself. Not quite sure if I like this one yet or not though. I want a paid account or something, just so I can get some more icons. I like making icons, yeah because I am easily amused. Also kind of bored right now. Need something to do..

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Freaky animals [26 Feb 2004|12:55am]
[ mood | okay ]

My cat has been acting especially freaky lately. She's been staring at me alot. I mean really staring. I was sitting on the couch, she was laying beside me, and I look over at her and she's staring right at me. Or other times she is laying on the bed bedside the computer sound asleep then all of a sudden she looks at me meows and then goes back to sleep. I don't know what is with her lately, but I would like to know. Get inside that little animal head of hers.

The weather was nice today. Well slightly. It wasn't bitterly cold or anything, and the snow is actually melting. Which is a sign of spring I hope! No more snow, I have had my fill for the season. Maybe even a bit more than that.

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Amusing.. [14 Feb 2004|01:48pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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I hate valentines day.
Who invented this crappy holiday anyways?
Probably some love-crazed loser with nothing better to do.

I mean it's like some freakin' heart-shaped nightmare
Candy hearts here and balloon hearts there
Pink and red hearts -- I hate hearts!

And this cupid guy.. I wanna beat the crap outta that little weirdo..
Flying around like some giant gnat in a loin cloth,
Takin' pot shots at people with his little love arrows.

What if people don't wanna be in love?
I mean, who does this creep think he is,
Makin' people all gah-gah against their will?

And the music!
Do you hear that?
I wanna puke.
when I hear that crap!
Enough with the music already

Well anyway...
Have a nice February, 14th
(But not a Happy Valentines Day...
I hate Valentines Day)

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Thank you [07 Feb 2004|08:51pm]
[ mood | good ]

I woke up way to early today. I was up around 8am. Ridiculous, not only is it the weekend, I didn't get to sleep until around 3:30am last night. I just couldn't sleep. Had quite a bit on my mind, but then when don't I?

So today I went down to the library, I paid of my $20 fine. And I thank my sister for that, since I borrowed the money from her. Yeah, I am pathetic I borrow money to pay off library fines. Just so I can take out some books! Though I just seriously want to check out the South Beach Diet and the Book Of Dreams, so I have both on hold. Hopefully I will get my hands on those books soon.

Though something strange happened when I went to get the money out of the machine. Dreaful machine at that, taking my hard earned.. ermm borrowed $1.50. Anyway, I go the the atm and there in the money slot is about $200-300 there. Someone forgot their reciept and their money! So I did what anyone would do and I took the wad of cash up to the cashier and explained what happened. I hope whoever's money that was gets it back. That would suck to lose that much!

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So Very Tired [30 Jan 2004|08:12pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

I am working on about 4 hours sleep here. I am not used to that, especially with what has been going on with my health lately. I was up early because my sister just had to phone and tell me that George Eads (one of my fave actors) was on Ellen. So I watched, not much happen. But I was up. And when I am up, I am up.

I need more and more sleep, and it's starting to get really ridiculous. Among other things, which just about convinces my mom that I have a yeast sensitivity. So she suggest I go on a yeast free diet, which also exclude refined carbs and sugar. All the good stuff. Hah. So I'll probably try that and see how it goes.

I really need to do some more active job searching as well. Though the job market is really shitty in this area, especially right now. It doesn't help that our local hospital thinks it's their duty to basically have people dying in the streets. Which is what it is going to come to soon. They are now refusing to admit anyone, unless you have a valid credit card they can charge if they happen to have some "unavoidable" charges. Which basically means I am fucked if my MRI turns up anything bad. Yes thank you so much health care for doing that.

Thank you for basically telling me since I don't own a credit card or have alot of money, my worth of living is non-existentt. Thanks ever so much.

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Creepy [29 Jan 2004|01:09pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I must have the creepiest pet ever. For the past few months my cat has been "daydreaming" alot. She'll stare off into space, or at the ceiling like she is looking at something or someone. Or she'll chase imaginary images on the wall or around the house, like there is something there. Her head just bobs around everywhere. I don't know why she does it, there is nothing there! It's all empty space. But it sure freaks me out at night! I'll cover her eyes and tell her to stop, because she's freaking me out!

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Sometimes.. [28 Jan 2004|01:50am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

Sometimes you just have to let things go. It seems difficult, and sometimes almost impossible, but it has to be done. I think I fear the unknown a bit, what will come. I'm not sure of how it'll all really work out. I just feel a little different now.

Probably wondering what I am rambling about. I am just reflecting on the friendship I used to have with someone. Not dwelling, but looking back with some nostalgia, and a bit of sadness. But a bit of sadness is inevitable right? I mean, we were friends for almost 12 years. I know not everything last forever, and I am have come to the realization that the friendship is beyond repair. We have drifted off in such different directions from each other, it's not surprising at all.

But yet I feel a little... different now. I don't know how else to describe it. And it's like it all just hit me now. Like right now, I just know it's all gone. Sometimes all you can do is let things go. That's all I know.

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[27 Jan 2004|02:46am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Oh it's windy and it's cold, but there is no snow like they predicted! Though right now I rather have the snow than this bitter cold we have right now. It would at least be a touch warmer.

I got a bit of a rant. I know now more than ever alot of people are really into nutrition and eating right. And I am all for that too, who doesn't want to live healthier? Anyways, my rant is all these nutritionists, scientists and food experts who test products over and over and over again. Beyond doses and consumption of these certain products we would never be able to humanly digest in one day and say they are bad for us.

It just peeves me. Every week they seem to come up with some new discovery of something we've been consuming for years that causes cancer or increases your risks of some disease. Well of course it will, when you are feeding a small mouse about a 1,000 times the recommended serving of something.

I think for the most part we are more obsessed with the idea of health and being overly healthy. I read a magazine from 1984 a couple of days ago (yeah I was bored) And you know what? It had an article about obese people, with about the same statistics about how we are all getting fat that we see nowadays. I think they just recycle the same damn "discoveries" every 10/20 years or so.

I just think everyone needs to relax.

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[25 Jan 2004|02:57am]
[ mood | tired ]

Oh I like my horoscope for the day, now lets see if Sunday really lives up to it.

Sunday's Horoscops: First you need to create a fantasy about your own future. Only after this has been done can you begin your next journey.

Went out for a bit today. Went to a movie. It was fun, though waiting in the extreme cold for the bus was no fun at all. My face was so cold it was actually aching. I say it all the time, but I'll say it again. I hate this weather!

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Try This! [22 Jan 2004|07:57pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Okay I know quite a few of you know nothing about me, but I thought this would be fun to do. Plus I found it on someone else's journal and I thought I just had to try it out (yeah I am a big dork)

How Well Do You Know Me?

Besides that I think I'll go watch Tru Calling, and maybe research the distant classes a little more. I know I need to be around here for the next while but I don't want to spend my free time doing nothing. So that is how it's going to go.

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Why? [22 Jan 2004|03:05am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

It's kind of hard to sleep when someone decides that 2:45am is the perfect time to use a snowblower in the complex. Uhm.. hello? It doesn't take that much common sense to know that 98% of people are sleeping at that hour, or at least trying to sleep! But I am up now, not for long though. I need my sleep, I have another busy day ahead of me tomorrow/today. I just had to complain about the noise.

I rarely do quizes/meme or anything like that. But I thought this was cute (yeah I am a sims addict)









   







Roll yer own with Antic's Sims-ulator!
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So Here Go.. [21 Jan 2004|02:14am]
[ mood | okay ]

I just want this cold weather to go away already! I don't mind it if it's a little bit cold, but this bitter coldness and windchilliness (yea not a real word) is just getting to me! I want spring now.

Besides that, I think I might just put off school for about 6 months now. I was supposed to go in and register for some classes on Feburary 2nd. But right now they really need my help around here, with my mom taking my nana to physical therapy 3 times a week and then my little brother going in for surgery in a few months, and the house needing to be taken care of and everything. There is just no time for me to take the bus down to durham every day for a few classes. It's just not plausible until everything is settled. I am looking into taking some distant classes though, but I don't think I can get loans for those. Which means I more than likely won't be doing those. I don't have an extra $1500 lying around to take some classes.

Still looking for a job. Which sucks, so I am kind of regretting quitting my job at Timmy's a few months ago. Okay so the smell of donuts and coffee all day made me sick. I could of lived with that for the $1000 a month a would of got.. should of just sucked it up. I'd have money now. I could take courses now. But nooo. I need sleep now.

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Keep Moving [18 Jan 2004|07:15pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Things with my healthy eating plan have been going alright so far, I don't think I will get into too much though. Because this really isn't my food journal and I don't want it to turn into one. So all I can say is that it's looking okay right now and hopefully I can keep that up!

I need to finally pay off my library fines (I owe them about $20 in late fees) Because I would really like to get some books out again. I am in the mood to do a bit of reading, not only that I want to check out the south beach diet. I want to know what all the hoopla over that is about.

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